Here We Go Again....

Hello Blog World!

I've been away for quite some time. I wish that I could tell you I continued to do all the things I purposed in my heart as far as getting healthier and better shape but I haven't. In fact, I've been doing pretty much whatever I wanted to do stopping myself only when others are around. Comments like "are you really going to eat all that?" or, "I thought you were on a diet", and my favorite "that's why you're fat" are SO not helping. Yeah, I know most people call themselves helping but it becomes irking to have someone question everything you lift to put into your mouth.

I was ashamed.

Then I got angry...

There's nothing more frustrating than the skinny friend who has never struggled with her waist line, let alone obesity a day in her life telling you how to loose weight. Like, WTF... Who asked you?  What do you know?

I found myself saving certain meals or snacks until  I could be alone and not hear anyone's criticism. But why should I have to do that? I'm grown. Right???? On the other-hand, aren't I the same one that told everyone that I needed help. So why am I getting so mad at people for helping me?

At this point, I'm confused...

Maybe food therapy would help...

So, I hate to sound like a broken record but I'm going to give it another go. I'll start out simply by reducing carbs limiting them to one day per week and whole grain stuff only on that day. I'll continue to stay away from fried and fast food. I will also be starting the 30 Day Shred over again today. I figure I shouldn't get too bored with 20-25 minutes of HIIT per day. We'll see.....

Better Luck Next Time

Hey Folks. Happy Friday!!! I have been really looking forward to this long weekend. It'll be a 4 day weekend for me and my baby is headed to first grade on Tuesday. He's not looking forward to trading in summer trips for book reports but he'll get over it. I hope....

The last time we talked I told you guys I was going to try to finish up the C25K week 5, run #3. Unfortunately, that didn't happen. I was well into the 20min running phase when suddenly I felt weak and sore all over. These weren't my normal running aches and pains. This felt as if it was something serious. I had already not been feeling like myself lately with feelings of what Web MD diagnosed as fibromyalgia . I felt numbness, soreness and burning aching pain. I tried to push through the pain and get through the workout but it wasn't happening.

I felt so defeated. This was the first time in over a year that I started a workout and didn't finish it. I reasoned that it was better to be safe than sorry and seek some real medical attention and lean not to my own medical understanding which is very limited seeing that I'm an Accountant in a hospital and know nothing about the clinical side. I forget that every now and again. (LOL)

I went to the doctor and she conducted a series of tests to analyze my strength (and I think coordination). She was pleased with my performance and decided to run "a few tests". When I got to the lab, "a few tests" ended up being 8 tubes of blood. Needless to say, I became even more concerned. The lab tech was not sure what all of the tests were for. Among the ones she did understand were cholesterol, diabetes, thyroids, blood count, anemia, and rheumatoid something or other. I know this is bad but I'm really hoping that my thyroid is behind my weight issues. Oh, how nice it would be to pop a pill and be a healthy weight again. I don't even need to be skinny - just healthy (and sexy would be nice too, LOL), Shoot, I'll settle for having only one stomach.

Anywho.. I decided to take it easy for a few days until the results come back unless I wake up feeling like my old self again. I'm really hoping that this is all in my mind or stress related from me being so disappointed in my weight loss (or lack thereof). So for now, I guess I'll just have to wait. Maybe I'll try to do some low impact exercise and gradually build my way back up. Again, I can't believe I failed to finish week 5.  I won't give up. Better luck next time...